today in biochem, dr. mcfarland gave us all some really great advice for life:
1) don’t get involved in secret affairs
2) don’t get involved in secret affairs with doctors who want to inject you with unknown chemicals.
i’m considering myself warned.
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1.28.2011
1.27.2011
contend for me, my god and LORD
the only relief i find in this world, when facing all the uncertainty and conflicts and ways that things can go so absolutely wrong, is that god is also fighting with me. not only is he fighting side-by-side with me and for me at times when i cannot fight, but he is also healing the wounds i inflict on myself because of my own sin, and the wounds inflicted on me by others because of their sin.
there is a high price for existing in this world. every which way there is a chance for us to be hurt, physically, spiritually, emotionally, in any way really. it is by the grace of god that any of us are alive for as long as we are, and that we are not maimed or emotionally unfit because of the trials of this world. i really believe this.
there was one night in the past year that i vividly remember. as i was lying in bed, trying to sleep, i had this overwhelming fear, or thought (i don't really know what to call it) that i wasn't going to wake up in the morning. maybe it was a sharp realization that there was no guarantee that i was going to wake up in the morning. maybe it was a little dramatic. in any case, it certainly got me thinking, and continues to make me reflect.
i remember feeling hopeless, like even if i could call my mom and she would answer at 2am, what would i say to her? there was literally nothing more i could do with my life at that point.
i just had to surrender to god.
i don't think i've ever completely surrendered to god in the way i did that night, and i have yet to find that same surrender again. but i think it's the only way to live this life. to be completely surrendered. to let god fight for me. to admit that i'm too weak to fight for myself. to let god heal the wounds i inflict on myself and others. our life is literally in god's hands, no matter how much we think we are in control. it's his to do what he thinks best.
contend for me, my god and LORD, as i surrender to you.
there is a high price for existing in this world. every which way there is a chance for us to be hurt, physically, spiritually, emotionally, in any way really. it is by the grace of god that any of us are alive for as long as we are, and that we are not maimed or emotionally unfit because of the trials of this world. i really believe this.
there was one night in the past year that i vividly remember. as i was lying in bed, trying to sleep, i had this overwhelming fear, or thought (i don't really know what to call it) that i wasn't going to wake up in the morning. maybe it was a sharp realization that there was no guarantee that i was going to wake up in the morning. maybe it was a little dramatic. in any case, it certainly got me thinking, and continues to make me reflect.
i remember feeling hopeless, like even if i could call my mom and she would answer at 2am, what would i say to her? there was literally nothing more i could do with my life at that point.
i just had to surrender to god.
i don't think i've ever completely surrendered to god in the way i did that night, and i have yet to find that same surrender again. but i think it's the only way to live this life. to be completely surrendered. to let god fight for me. to admit that i'm too weak to fight for myself. to let god heal the wounds i inflict on myself and others. our life is literally in god's hands, no matter how much we think we are in control. it's his to do what he thinks best.
contend for me, my god and LORD, as i surrender to you.
1.19.2011
turning a new leaf
i've been reading through the book of psalms lately. five chapters at a time. and in all honesty this has helped my heart and soul so much.
i used to not like the book of psalms. i thought it was mushy and repetitive and, to be honest, boring. nothing substantial. i've had a change of heart since this round of reading through it.
david really knows how to get at the heart of himself and of god (something i have trouble with). today's readings have particularly encouraged my soul:
i used to not like the book of psalms. i thought it was mushy and repetitive and, to be honest, boring. nothing substantial. i've had a change of heart since this round of reading through it.
david really knows how to get at the heart of himself and of god (something i have trouble with). today's readings have particularly encouraged my soul:
vindicate me, o LORD, for i have led a blameless life; i have trusted the LORD without wavering. test me o LORD, and try me, examine my heart and my mind; for your love is ever before me, and i walk continually in your truth... my feet stand on level ground; in the great assembly i will praise the LORD. <psalm 26>and
one thing i ask of the LORD, this is what i seek: that i may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. <psalm 27>and finally, my favorite one today, for many personal reasons from events that have happened recently
you turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. o LORD my god, i will give you thanks forever. <psalm 30>
1.17.2011
happily trapped
is freedom attainable? i'll never be free. i just hope to be happily trapped.-anonymous classmate
1.13.2011
it's okay to cry
i did not say do not weep, for not all tears are an evil-gandolf in return of the king
1.09.2011
this is the year
sorry for the large amount of embedded videos. don't worry, i'm not turning into a youtube junkie, i just can't help posting things that i find and want to watch again, anyways, i hope they gave you some enjoyment, if nothing else.
just in case some of you didn't get the memo, it's the new year. which means a couple things. first, it's 2011, the year i graduate from college. hello!! what the heck? i swear i'm not old enough or mature enough to be graduating college. second, it's the time for new years resolutions.
i have a love/hate relationship with new years resolutions. part of me really values the obvious chance to start over, and the natural time to turn a new page and do things differently. at the same time, i hate new years because new years resolutions overwhelm me. figuring out what the most important things are to change out of all the things i see i need to change is a daunting task, and one i do not take lightly. it can be painful.
instead of making goals, i decided to list some things that i'm hoping and expecting to happen.
this is the year
just in case some of you didn't get the memo, it's the new year. which means a couple things. first, it's 2011, the year i graduate from college. hello!! what the heck? i swear i'm not old enough or mature enough to be graduating college. second, it's the time for new years resolutions.
i have a love/hate relationship with new years resolutions. part of me really values the obvious chance to start over, and the natural time to turn a new page and do things differently. at the same time, i hate new years because new years resolutions overwhelm me. figuring out what the most important things are to change out of all the things i see i need to change is a daunting task, and one i do not take lightly. it can be painful.
instead of making goals, i decided to list some things that i'm hoping and expecting to happen.
this is the year
- that i learn a new language
- that i enjoy being me
- that i read more books for fun
- that i take a few more risks in my relationships
- that i get my nails done more often
- that i won't be ashamed to take care of me, physically and spiritually
- that i won't count the amount of hours i've slept in a week
- that i won't count the amount of hours i've spent studying and working on homework
- that i overcome a fear
- that i express my love and gratitude more often to people
- that i don't take myself too seriously
- that i feed myself better things, physically and spiritually
- that i finish the bible from cover to cover
- that i make a new best friend
- that i come to a better and more complete understanding of god's grace
- that i am more gracious to others
i'm viewing these things as more of a lifestyle and mindset change, rather than additional things that i want to add to my life and character. this year is sure to be unforgettable.
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